Tonight has been all about weight loss as a journey, not a finish line. I did a weight loss class at curves tonight - the first of 7. It talked about weight loss as a lifelong journey - the fact that you can't maintain a caloric intake of 1200 calories a day - you'll stay on a diet the rest of your life!! The Biggest Loser also talked about weight loss as a journey as all the contestants were focused on final four and reaching their weight loss goal, but as Bob talked about, you have to make a commitment to live this way the rest of your life - not exercising 8 hours a day, but eating the right foods and moving. They showed the pictures of the before and after and the videos of each really had a strong impact on me. All the things they talked about - not wanting to get up, feeling invisible, wanting so much to have someone to share and experience life with, but about having to love yourself first, it all hits home with me. I miss getting hugs, having someone to come home to, someone to share my days and weekends with. The point was made tonight that you can't let setbacks keep you down - its just like riding a bike - you pick yourself back up and try again. That's what I'm going to do - but I can't keep half-heartedly doing this - sure working out is working out no matter how many times you go -but if you still consume junk food at each meal you're not going to get anywhere. So below are my 'trigger' foods- those foods that I know I can't eat in moderation.
1. Pizza 8. Chips and salsa/queso/guac
2. Donuts 9. Soda - namely Dr. Pepper and Mountain Dew
3. Cookies 10. Chocolate
4. Fries 11. My mom's chicken spaghetti
5. Pasta 12. Mac and Cheese
6. Bread 13. Chinese!!
7. Bacon
This also encompasses junk food - Sonic, McDonald's, Burger King - basically any place with a drive thru. My goal is going to be not to have any of these foods the rest of the week - or at least until Sunday when I have my last meal before going on the curves food plan (suggestions and company welcome) which surprisingly I'm actually looking forward to - the way they presented it tonight was easy, straightforward and very easy to follow if you plan ahead. So stay tuned for those meals - the favorites and the no so favorites.
By the way...this marks the first time that I have done the exercise/eat better thing fairly consistenly for the first time since I was skinny. That's a HUGE deal!!!
Celebrate the small :)
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Sunday, May 2, 2010
Payoffs....feel good or real good?
Everything we do we do for a reason. We get some sort of payoff from it. For instance: when I eat junk food or stuff that isn't good for me, the payoff I get is control. When I avoid responsibility (cleaning my room, doing a budget) the payoff I get is control once again - doing what I want to do when I want to do it. Both of these are feel good payoffs. If I wanted a real good payoff- I would eat what I should, exercise (push myself more), clean my room and not procrastinate.
I have been house sitting this weekend for my friends from Pathways. She said I could help myself to whatever food they had. I opened the cabinet and I was immediately met with processed food - packaged rice, candies, chocolate, processed sugar, cheese, fatty foods, fried foods and incredibly unhealthy stuff. The more I ate, the worse I felt. It was incredible how automatic those reactions to food were - if it was available I wanted it - no matter what my body was telling me. She didn't have leashes or anything for her dogs (if she did, she didn't tell me where they were) so walking the dogs was out of the question. So the only thing to do was to sit in front of the TV. Don't get my wrong, I love them to death, but as far as my health is concerned, I just couldn't do it. I wanted to make healthy alternatives with what they had but it was HARD! I came home today to fish in the freezer, whole grain waffles, no refined sugar or processed foods - nothing. It was an eye opening experience for me to know what my autopilot is and to know how little discipline I actually have when it comes to eating. But the great thing is that tomorrow is a new day- I can pick myself back up again and keep moving forward.
I want the real good payoff and the real good result - more energy, better hair, better skin, loose fitting clothes, more activity, more mobility, more flexibility, a guarantee (sort of) that I will be here and that my weight and health problems will not keep me from living my life and achieving my dreams.
I have been house sitting this weekend for my friends from Pathways. She said I could help myself to whatever food they had. I opened the cabinet and I was immediately met with processed food - packaged rice, candies, chocolate, processed sugar, cheese, fatty foods, fried foods and incredibly unhealthy stuff. The more I ate, the worse I felt. It was incredible how automatic those reactions to food were - if it was available I wanted it - no matter what my body was telling me. She didn't have leashes or anything for her dogs (if she did, she didn't tell me where they were) so walking the dogs was out of the question. So the only thing to do was to sit in front of the TV. Don't get my wrong, I love them to death, but as far as my health is concerned, I just couldn't do it. I wanted to make healthy alternatives with what they had but it was HARD! I came home today to fish in the freezer, whole grain waffles, no refined sugar or processed foods - nothing. It was an eye opening experience for me to know what my autopilot is and to know how little discipline I actually have when it comes to eating. But the great thing is that tomorrow is a new day- I can pick myself back up again and keep moving forward.
I want the real good payoff and the real good result - more energy, better hair, better skin, loose fitting clothes, more activity, more mobility, more flexibility, a guarantee (sort of) that I will be here and that my weight and health problems will not keep me from living my life and achieving my dreams.
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